No Matter What

I do realize it has been way too long. I let myself down with not updating it enough, but life is crazy right now & I've been incredibly busy! Anyhow, I want to start with one of my favorite verses.

 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart,and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." -Proverbs 3:5-6 (ESV)

In my own heart, God's been doing a lot of work. He's been tearing down strong holds and building my faith. However, the biggest thing that God is teaching me to do is trust Him, no matter what.
It's really easy to say that I trust God when I'm standing in front of my church family singing or speaking (sharing my testimony, not teaching). Yet, it can be hard when your doctor tells you that you have 4 more surgeries to undergo, and that it will take you (at the very least) 2 months to recover from each surgery, and then at least another 6 months to finish healing and recovering to prep for the next one. That type of news is life altering.
Even though I got that news a couple of weeks ago, and got in my car and completely broke down, I knew I was going to be okay.
See, my plans for the next year and a half were flipped upside down. Yet, I knew that no matter what God would take care of me.
I've felt His peace, the peace that passes all understanding.
I've known His love when my heart is breaking.
I've drawn from His strength in me when I was hurt.
I've been saved.

Yes, sometimes life absolutely sucks.
There is no way of getting around that.
Sometimes the cards that we are dealt are rather inconvenient and we'd rather trade them in. But, unfortunately we can't.
Why not?
Here's why, because God doesn't just use our good "cards" (situations/life circumstances). He uses every thing, and every day to make us more like Him in every way.
I've been dealt more bad cards than good. But, it doesn't matter.
What matters is, I know that God is good.
I know that He is working EVERYTHING together for my good, and ultimately His glory.

Yes, I lost my mom from cancer, I was a victim of abuse, I have a life altering condition, I am 600 miles away from my Dad 98% of the time, and I am in the hospital/doctors office a good 75% of the time. But, no matter what I will trust in the Lord.


 No matter what.

"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 8:38-39