Trust God, Not Circumstances

As those close to me know, I'm not a very trusting person, it takes alot to win my trust, and a little to loose it. The Lord has been dealing with me about my level of trust in Him. For a long time I've thought that I could trust God as God, but not as a Father, He would let me down. I knew that the Lord has the whole world in sovereign hands, but I failed to believe that He had an interest in knowing all my problems, and actually solving them.


I was up late last night when the plans that I had made came crashing down. Something that I've been looking forward to for a while now, slipped out of my hands, and out of my control. Although I tried to remain calm, I wasn't. I like to be in control of things, and with this situation out of my hands, I had no other choice but to give it to God. But could I trust Him with this, would He fufill my desires if I submitted them to Him? Would He let me down, just like everyone else?

As these and a million other questions swirled around in my brain, (I'm starting to think, that I think too much!) I felt the Lord gently whisper "Be still, just trust Me." After getting off the phone with my friend, I pleaded with God to help me trust Him, not only in this circumstance, but with everything, with my life, and my heart. I didn't want to get hurt, but I didn't have any other option besides trusting that He has everything under control and it would all be okay in the end.


I knew I needed to pray, but it seemed so impossible. Would He hear me, after all I've done against Him? Would He turn His face away? My shame was evident to Him, there was no more hiding my brokenness. I needed Him, even if it meant Him hurting me in the end.

"For I know the thoughts I have toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." -Jeremiah 29:11

"And He led them on safely, so that they feared not.." -Ps. 78:52

After finding and meditating on these two scriptures, I began to find peace in the "storm". I knew that I was the child, He was the Father, and I was sure (for the first time in a long time) that He would take care of everything. I knew that even if He let things happen that I didn't like or that were "inconvienant", that He was still in control and I was reminded of Romans 8:28 which says

"And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to His purpose."

With peace in my heart, and the love of a never failing God on my mind, I finally drifted off to sleep.


I hope my struggle last night, was a testimony of how God takes us in our storms and shows us His light. He shows us how much we really need Him, we need Him for every breath we take. Sometimes I think we forget that in our busy-ness and schedules and deadlines. We think we can do it all as women (I certainly like to think so!), but our faithful Father always comes along and teaches us once more how much we depend on Him.
Don't trust your circumstances, or situations because they can fail miserably, but our God; He can be trusted.

"I'm restless, until I rest in You, O God" -Audrey Assad